Been a while since I wrote a 'real' journal entry that isn't focused on advertising my other places on the internet, shops, etc.
Well, you may have known that I haven't been drawing a lot lately due to school and personal life stuff. Now I have the time again for a month before school starts again. Not creating any new art for a while and coming back here has made me realize something about myself, and it's kind of sad but I have to deal with it because I am realizing that it is very true.
I learned that drawing is just a hobby to me and nothing more. I don't think I will ever pursue it seriously in the future. I only like to draw certain things and when I have to draw anything else, I absolutely hate it. I hate drawing things I don't care about. Therefore, a lot of my stuff looks pretty much the same but surprisingly I'm not bothered by it. I understand that artists constantly want to improve, and I do too, but at this point, I just want to draw what I like to draw and if it turns out that all my pictures look the same, then so be it. I don't care about those kinds of things anymore. Drawing BL and yaoi stuff is just fun for me. I don't care about angles, perspectives, dynamics, etc. I don't care about drawing girls. I don't care about backgrounds. There are so many things I just don't care about and I won't care about anymore!! Ofcourse when I get tired of drawing something I'll find something else. 'Till then, I'll just do whatever the heck I wanna do.
I don't really care anymore about improving or whatever with my art. There are more important things in life and drawing is just a fun escape for me. I don't want to turn that fun escape into something frustrating by worrying about how I can improve and make my drawings different and better. I just wanna relax and have fun with it no matter how repetitive they will appear. If people have a problem with it, then it's their problem and not mine.
Well, it feels good to let that out. lol
Lately I have a huge idgaf attitude. I guess that goes with my art too now haha
One more thing, thank you to those who still follow me and stuff on here and everywhere else even though it's been a while and I kind of just disappeared. I'm also really happy that there are people who actually look at my stuff and like it. It must be a miracle~ I am always thankful to have you guys here with me and your support. No words can ever express how much it means to me.
See you guys soon!=beautiful-shinigami